My husband is out of town again. He goes out of town often and doesn't like me to tell people because he doesn't want the world to know that I am home alone.
I know it's nothing new that he's out of town. The thing is that I don't know a lot of people out here and people don't really know my schedule. It's boring and lonesome. I know this is the guy that I married. Normally I would only see him on the weekends. It's been different lately. Now it's more of him leaving on the weekends and me seeing him one night every other week. So I see him maybe one day out of two weeks.
Why am I pointing this out? I am pointing this out because I am jealous of all of the families that have their husbands deployed and have a support group. I don't have that and I never will have some nice support group that I can run too when I'm having a hard time. I think I see my husband a smaller percentage of the time than military families. Yes, I see my husband about 40 days out of the year, every year. Most of those days are on holidays. I'm jealous that they give the military time to call their family often. Once they get home, they can stay home as long as they want. He would be less likely to be killed in war. I worry that he'll get in a car accident with all of his driving.
I miss all my California friends that knew my schedule. I thrive on playdates. I realized before The kids were doing four playdates a week. Those things were keeping my sanity.
He's been gone for a week and now I am counting down until next week when I get to see him again and send him off again.